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The journey to end my anxiety.

This is how I went from deep depression and total anxious wreck, to becoming anxiety-proof

Before I defeated depression and anxiety, before I taught others how to defeat their anxiety… there was a very lost, troubled and emotionally overwhelmed sufferer. 

An empath who frequently got hurt by the very people he cared about. Constantly judging and  belittling myself I had the self-esteem of a doormat. Always dreading the possibility of anxiety turning me crazy. Or worse, sending me to the ER to find out I had an incurable chronic illness whose treatment would be impossible to pay.

Powerless in a world where nothing could help me, wondering when would it all end, finding solace listening to “Mad World”… 

It was far from easy…

It wasn’t easy to defeat anxiety and depression, especially because I had ‘em since early childhood. And I am not going to tell you I had the harshest childhood in the human history, I don’t see the point in comparing my suffering others’. But I will tell you this: It was not easy at all.

My very first memory is quite a painful one and let’s just say I was born into an environment of violence, narcissism, deceit, manipulation and control. From the crib, I had to face hardships and trauma as a consequence.

This forced me deep into depression and anxiety in my early childhood and I had to struggle with them for years! I knew there HAD to be a true solution that didn’t involve taking dangerous prescription drugs.

I got more “panicky”

At first I tried ignoring all the pain in my life, but it didn’t work. The more I tried to ignore it, the more anxious I got! Panic and anxiety attacks were more frequent, so instead I decided to address my inner conflict.

But it was painful too! Nobody likes to remember the bad stuff, right? But this was a very problematic contradiction. It was quite frustrating… I couldn’t ignore it and I also couldn’t solve anything!… or could I?…

I decided to look at my problems from a different angle. If reviewing my emotional conflict got me too emotional, then I was being a problem to myself!

This is when I learned detachment, a gamechanger, to be able to contemplate ideas and emotions without getting involved. Unknowingly I had started meditating and I sat everyday alone in a room meditating upon my suffering, and being an empath I also meditated upon other people’s suffering.

I am not going to tell you this solved everything but I had achieved something invaluable: Understanding of the human mind and life.

It wasn’t long until I started delving into deeper subjects. By age 10 I was reading college-level books of psychology. Most of it seemed obvious to me and some other things simply wrong.

By age 12 I was into Jung a lot. But I always saw a “hole” in psychology. Couldn’t quite put my finger on it, but to me, it seemed incomplete. Like the most important things were being completely omitted, always from the “outsider’s” perspective, but nothing on what it feels like to have depression and anxiety.

It used to piss me off how it all made me feel, like there was nothing I could do to defeat anxiety and depression and I didn’t want to take pills.

Therapy was never an option since we could not afford it and besides I never felt comfortable with it, and I did try. My fear was getting medicated, I have always been against that and I knew about the terrible side effects and ineffectiveness, not for me.

I thought I had run out of resources and my depression got the ugliest in early adolescence. I isolated myself from the rest of the world, and I was constantly mad and got suicidal. I really didn’t want to live and found no reason or purpose.

But it was not the first time I felt suicidal, as a child I contemplated suicide but came to a conclusion which I remembered later as a teenager: I came to this world for a reason I totally ignore, but I will not know it if I leave prematurely. Whatever it is I will endure the pain and stay here to find out. Twice I had rejected suicide and decided to stay and suffer, for whatever it was I had to learn something.

All The Right Things

Then I discovered something that literally changed my life and supercharged the results I was making. I was finally able to “fill the hole” I saw in psychology…

By age 21 I had gone from being logical-minded, to embracing transcendentalism, from being a left-brained bonehead to a holistic mindset by embracing my right-brain.

I discovered Zen Buddhism, Tao, Mindfulness and Yoga and with this new knowledge all clicked into place. I knew how to meditate, but the new wisdom supercharged my mind and emotions as I found new tools to deal with pain.

It was the missing piece of the puzzle, which allowed me to:

Control my mind, and therefore anxiety.

Control my emotions so I could be 100% stable.

Withstand panic attacks without much suffering.

Defeat depression

Gain control of my life.

And ultimately make myself anxiety-proof.

Neither anxiety nor depression are present in me anymore! At first I felt I could easily snap back into them, but I trained myself to defeat them again whenever they came knocking on my door.

And after all that was in place…

The Truth About Anxiety 

I learned the truth about these mental illnesses: They are states of mind which can be reverted by anyone willing to put in the time and effort. No, not years like I had to, but months at most, because I created a method of all the things I had to learn painstakingly throughout the years, so that others could take the fast-track.

All The Right Things

I couldn’t find the knowledge I needed anywhere, it was all scattered across countless books, behind years of meditation and most of it I had to learn empirically. The things I needed to defeat anxiety and depression didn’t exist anywhere and so I had to craft the method.

And it is my firm belief that all wisdom should be shared. It is my mission to help you defeat anxiety and depression.

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I couldn’t find the knowledge I needed anywhere, it was all scattered across books upon books, and most of it I had to learn empirically. The things I needed to defeat anxiety and depression didn’t exist anywhere and so I had to craft the method.

And it is my firm belief that all wisdom should be shared. It is my mission to help you defeat anxiety and depression.

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